Monday, November 25, 2013


the flamboyant flaming red, leaned up against the old red tin roof at school.
day in.
day out.
'heavy clouds but no rain'.
no electricity either.
that old chestnut, i swear.
day after blazing day.

we lit sparklers.
to cheer ourselves up.
lightening flickers somewhere far in the east.
somewhere over the tanzanite mines near the airport, perhaps.
but there is not the faintest smell of rain.
the lightening must be very far away.

my son says i am ruining his social life.

but the summer twilight is smug. we lounge on the veranda and cicadas screech in the mountain olives.
we light the sparklers in the courtyard - a giant gold one which daniel held, a red one, a blue one, a green one, a silver one. we twirled them under the quiet stars. rubin tells me that the sparks can't hurt you.
daniel spells his name.
"look ma!" as if he was still 5, my tall gangly golden 17 year old boy.
it was splendid.
we tried to light a rocket too. but the wind was too strong and the wick rubbish - that's what you said - and that it could blow your face off.
we looked at Venus, low and fat in the west and the small late moon rise over kilimanjaro, all set about with lacy clouds. theatrical.

we were there, all of us, present, bound by love, hand in hand.
and i thought "This matters."


Miranda said...

You're amaazing Janelle! No, seriously though, you are!

Janelle said...

Tsawwww thanks Moelie Pip! Love ya xxx

Nicola said...

I waited so long for you to blog again. It was worth the wait. Beautiful!

Nicola said...

I waited so long for you to blog again. It was worth the wait. Beautiful!

Janelle said...

Thanks Nicola! Sorry it took so kinda gets in the way and i shouldn't let it interfere with my words....must try harder xxx

Silvia Byrne said...

Beautifully written. Happy to find a post from you tonight. x

fushandchips said...

Ahhh. This made me smile.

Great blog.

Janelle said...

Thank you Silvia and Fush! Glad it made you smile. Yes. x j

Mark said...

" does matter."

Sarah said...

Your writing always gets me in the gut. Hope we can get together soon and talk words and words. Heading for Dar in January. So glad you have posted....more,more, more, please! Powerful stuff. xx

Anonymous said...

Dear Janelle

I,we, fucking miss you, please? another post?

Joëlle from mother fucking freezing Canadaxxx

Lucy Campbell said...

Sigh. I keep popping over and still nothing….Lx

Fran said...

I really like this.